Former Jaguars and Bears offensive lineman Eben Britton is only 28 years old, but according to him, he’s finished as an NFL player thanks to a four-game suspension he was given after testing positive for Ritalin before this season. You may not remember his name because Britton was just one of hundreds of relatively anonymous NFL players who are always one bit of bad luck away from being out of the league. And that state of uncertainty causes those players to sacrifice everything just to stay in the league.
Britton has written a first-hand account of his struggles for The Cauldron, and it is absolutely harrowing. He started taking Adderall to help ignore the pain of a herniated disc, and here’s where it went from there:
I started taking Adderall regularly — chasing the dragon, as they say, always after the high you had the first time. I didn’t consider myself a drug addict. This was something that was prescribed to me. By a doctor. And given that there was a noticeable difference in my productivity whenever I took it, my usage was easy to justify.
The only downside, as I saw it, was the afternoon crash… Before long, I needed to smoke copious amounts of marijuana just to ease the comedown.
In hindsight, that wasn’t a good sign, but I couldn’t see clearly… By then, the league had already grown wary of prescribing painkillers to active players, but in my case (and in many, many other players’), Adderall wasn’t categorized by the same broad-brush approach.
Simply put, the drug helped me play through the pain. It was legal, and that was good enough for me.
I repeated that cycle over the next four(!) years. Adderall by day, weed by night. Each and every day riding the maelstrom of emotions and hormones. Ups and downs; cliffs and valleys; back and forth. For me, it was the only way of dealing with the physical and psychological grind of the game.
I felt liberation through medication.