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Tekashi 69 Says He Felt ‘Relief’ When He Was Arrested Because He ‘Felt Stuck’ In Gang Life

Tekashi 69’s sentencing date in his federal case is just a few days away now, and ahead of December 18, he has submitted a personal letter to the judge, in which he says he was actually relieved when he was arrested.

In the letter (via TMZ), Tekashi (who submitted the letter under his legal name, Daniel Hernandez) wrote, “I had a feeling of relief when I was arrested by the Government because I felt stuck, like the gang had control of my life and that I would never be able to escape their grip. I needed to do something before it was too late.”

Elsewhere, he expresses some optimism about his situation, writing, “I know that my life will never be the same but hopefully this change will be for the better because beyond all this, I still consider myself a role model to millions of people as an artist, a celebrity and a human being. I’m happy that the public was able to witness me dealing with the consequences of my actions because I feel like it sheds a light on what can come from gang affiliations. I know that this is part of the plan that God has for me and I am confident that I am ready to face this thing head on.”

He concludes the note, “I’m truly sorry for the harm that I’ve caused. If given a second chance, I will not let this Court down and I will dedicate a portion of my life to helping others not make the same mistakes that I’ve made.”

Read the full letter below.

“Dear Judge Engelmayer,

As my sentencing date approaches, I am becoming more and more overwhelmed with emotions. More than anything, I am extremely grateful for this opportunity to express my remorse to you, your Honor, over the situation. I find it difficult to find the right words to express what my life has been like for the last year. It honestly feels like my world is crashing down. There is no excuse, no justification and no apology good enough in the world to explain my crimes. While I have been incarcerated, I have had time to reflect on the recklessness and foolishness of my decisions. I wake up every morning asking myself was it worth it? I know that my life will never be the same but hopefully this change will be for the better because beyond all this, I still consider myself a role model to millions of people as an artist, a celebrity and a human being. I’m happy that the public was able to witness me dealing with the consequences of my actions because I feel like it sheds a light on what can come from gang affiliations. I know that this is part of the plan that God has for me and I am confident that I am ready to face this thing head on.

Before my arrest I publicly disassociated myself from Nine Trey but I knew that it would come with a price. I knew from previous incidents that the gang would retaliate against me for denouncing them in public. Prior to my arrest, I was kidnapped by members of the gang, became aware of the fact that the mother of my child was having sexual relations with one of my co-defendants and that they were stealing hundreds of thousands of dollars from me. I had a feeling of relief when I was arrested by the Government because I felt stuck, like the gang had control of my life and that I would never be able to escape their grip. I needed to do something before it was too late.

I realize that I placed myself in this position with the choices that I made. I know that I am not a victim because my actions contributed to this mess. I have had plenty of time to reflect and since the time of my arrest I have asked myself, ‘Are you remorseful because of what happened or because you were caught?’ I now know that I am remorseful because I was blessed with the gift of an opportunity that most people dream of but I squandered it by getting involved with the wrong people and misrepresenting myself when I should have been true to myself and my fans. I’m sorry to the victims who were affected by my actions, to my fans who look up to me and were misled, to my family who depends on me and to this courtroom for this mess that I contributed to.

I’m truly sorry for the harm that I’ve caused. If given a second chance, I will not let this Court down and I will dedicate a portion of my life to helping others not make the same mistakes that I’ve made.

Sincerely,

Daniel Hernandez.”

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