The toughest part of any sexual assault trial, criminal or civil, is the testimony of the victim. It’s a traumatic memory for anyone, and especially traumatic to recount it in such a public forum in front of lawyers who are invested in discrediting you. That’s what Derrick Rose’s accuser, Jane Doe, just went through in the trial in Los Angeles, and Deadspin’s Diana Moskovitz has the details of her harrowing, emotional testimony.
Since she didn’t remember specific details of the event due to her intoxication, Doe’s testimony focused on the aftermath.
She got home, threw up in the toilet, and passed out on her bed. As she has said before, she mostly remembers flashes of the different men in her room. She can’t remember the text messages and calls to her phone, and didn’t even when one of her lawyers put them before her, blown up, on a giant piece of cardboard.
What she does remember is the next morning. She woke up, she said, hung over with her dress on her neck and lube everywhere, and heard from a roommate that men had been over. It was this testimony that was the hardest for her to give. She cried, putting her head so low that it was at times hard for the microphones to pick her up. At one point, even a juror asked her to speak into the microphone so they could hear her.
Doe spoke of her unwillingness to go to the police out of concern for Rose, saying, “I didn’t want to be the reason why … anyone goes to jail. I didn’t want any retaliation.”